Forget is: forgotten. No longer remembered. Not thought of. And gone.
Consider not: remove this lens. It is not relevant. Not part of the equation. AS THOUGH IT NEVER WAS.
When the Lord began to do His great work in me,
which was perhaps 7 months ago now, or maybe 43 years and 9 months ago,
or maybe,
just now
I thought ... "hm. I imagine that within 3 years or so,
my entire body of work
my business
and life
will ONLY
be of you".
I didn't mean, in MY thinking at that time, that I wanted to hold anything back. It was more ...
it will take around 3 years I guess, to gradually transition from 'business my way and through my lens' to ONLY breathing out,
of God.
Fortunately this was a mere passing thought I had,
and not an agreement I made
nor put any import behind.
It was just an idea I had,
of time.
What I hadn't considered AT that time was that ... last anybody looked, the Lords arm had not been shortened (Numbers 11:23 and my FAVE), and so HE WILL ALWAYS DO WHAT HE SAYS HE WILL DO, He will do it in His own time and way thank you very much, and all He requires from US,
is that we step aside
and LET HIM WORK
If you have observed how quickly the Lord has moved things for me,
or perhaps you just wonder about speed for your SELF,
I will share with you that even in my questioning,
my wondering,
my mind
trying to figure things OUT
I have on repeat, nay daily, cried YES LORD YES, HAVE YOUR WAY.
My daily prayer REGARDLESS my own thoughts, regardless fear, or doubt, or 'how' is - NOT MY WAY BUT YOURS LORD, NOT MY WILL BUT THINE, NOT MY THOUGHTS BUT YOURS YOURS YOURS.
(Isaiah 55: 8-9)
I SUBMIT. I SURRENDER. I WILLINGLY HAND OVER MY RIGHTS. I WILL NOT LEAN ON MY OWN UNDERSTANDING. I ACKNOWLEDGE YOU IN ALL THAT IS GOOD AND IN WORKING FOR GOOD ALL I HAVE CHOSEN OR DONE WHICH WAS NOT! ORDER MY STEPS LORD, ORDER MY STEPS, ORDER MY STEPS, AND I THANK YOU,
YOU DO.
These and various other prayers of submission,
surrender,
and willingly giving over,
my rights to live
or breathe
as me
So even as my MIND may have wondered HOW, or invented its own timelines and ideas ...
the Lord was TAKING THE ACCESS I GAVE AND GIVE HIM,
and doing a NEW thing
as only He can.
The effect of this on me has been ...
wonderful
destabilising in the extreme
tumultuous
everything falling apart faster than one would have thought humanly possible (um ... because it's not)
and simultaneously being reformed faster than, well, any idea we have of speed