When it comes to BUS-iness, while you've always been willing, more than willing, and able, more than able, to 'do what it takes, no matter what it takes, until it takes', to outwork ANYONE, to join all the dots and cross EVERY 't' in order to get to where you want to go and know that you SHOULD -
At the same time, the TRUTH is -
You kinda sorta don't wanna.
Do the things. The sales-y things. The market-y things. The business-y things. The attention to things, like 'getting leads', and 'building funnels', and 'converting'.
I mean ... you CAN do it. Duh. YOU CAN DO FUCKING ANYTHING, there was never a question about THAT! AND you will be the literal best in the world at it, if you decide to!
So there!!
But the thing is, the THING is -
You kinda sort not just don't WANNA, you also think you shouldn't HAFTA!
So THERE!
If we take this back a decade or three, you'll remember, I trust, how you've ALWAYS been able to get what you want, click your fingers and have the world around you just CONFORM to your liking, do what it's told, and with a thank you back AT you as well!
You've always been able to 'hack the system', too, haven't you?
Not just 'cause it's fun ... and that rebel side of you likes to just mess with shit a lil bit ... but also because, well -
You can usually just see a better path.
Than the one which was laid out for you.
The one which they SAID you should do.
The one which the FOLLOWERS traverse.
And a lot of the time, the truth is you just know you are SMARTER than those who made the rules, created the system, said how it must be.
To add to this of course, is the whole thing about how the normal rules just don't apply for you and never have!
You've always been able to do things just with your mind ... with magic ... with access to powers and resources that others don't seem to know about.
It's like you're given special codes.
Shortcuts.
Backdoors, which take you straight to the front.
And, you've felt bad about this at times. Ashamed, a little. Scared even! Perhaps in some ways these feelings of "I'm doing something wrong", or "I feel bad for other people though, why do I always seem to have everything work so perfectly for me!" have caused you to push down your gifts.