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There was a story.
About a man.
It happened soon after I left my second marriage.
And my self-worth was shot. Had been, for so long, in this area. Maybe since always.
I loved him, this man.
Or perhaps, the idea of him, of it, and of being, loved.
Accepted.
Worthy.
But right then all I could see?
Was I adored him.
I wanted him SO much.
I HAD TO HAVE HIM … and it HAD happened, on repeat, but as soon as I started showing my NEED, away he ran.
DESPERATELY I tried to pull him back in.
I was TERRIFIED that he’d prove me right, that I wasn’t good enough, to be loved.
Accepted.
Or have.
Much of anything, really.
Well –
My fears came true.
At the final hour, when I knew I would NOT BE ABLE TO BEAR IT if he turned me away –
He did.
I broke.
I cried.
I felt brokEN and so –
So –
Worthless.
So I went to Bikram yoga.
As I do!
And I set an intention –
That I’d learn what I needed to learn in that class.
I do this.
Often.
The answers ALWAYS arrive.
I spent the first half of that class in tears.
Silently.
Running down my face.
Not knowing how I could possibly DEAL.
With feeling SO damn low.
And lost.
And then somewhere –
In the middle of bending and pulling and arching and stretching –
Something shifted inside of me.
And I realised that he had come into my life to teach me a lesson that could NEVER be taken away, and that I’d for over 3 DECADES never been able to learn.
In that moment I was SO.FUCKING.GRATEFUL to him.
And the lesson was this:
There is nothing that I can receive from outside of me if I don’t first gift it to myself.
In that moment, I decided I would learn how to fully give myself love, acceptance, flow.
And since then?
I’ve received nothing but love, acceptance, and flow.
(Well. I got to do a little work, first!!)
I already had it, ‘to a degree’ in business.
Now I have it fully.
In every part.
Of who I am.
That story of a man?
Is really the story of how I learned to live my life in a way that most people will FOREVER keep at arms length from themselves.
And I’d love to show you how you too can stop holding YOUR happy ever after away from yourself –
In business.
With money.
In relationships.
In your self.
In life.